Apologies.Can't bring the impeccable expression of yours Samantha.
Seriously i am crazy about you Sam.
Gods were great in sending you to this earth.
May the gods be great enough that you can be mine. I know its too much to ask.
Nonetheless all wishes doesn't come true. Birthday blessings to you.

Lost .. and back again

Every now and then
I am left bewildered
Driven by circumstances
That once gave me reason
for my life

I was never weak
But now
To everyone's amazement
I am a freak

It is love this time
That hurts
The feeling of not having you by my side
lurks

I had never complained
But this time things need to be explained
I had loved you like none
then..Why was i not the one ?

Deep melancholy has settled in my life
Days are sad and night brings nightmares
I have seen lots of highs and lows
None could break me apart
It was you who did the art
How insane of me , How daft
I couldn't understand the craft

You found someone more fit for you i guess
But you left my life in a complete mess

Sometimes it lasts in love
Sometimes it hurts instead

I am no quitter
But neither a sitter
Not that i won't miss you
Just that i figured out it was not you

For my dear Mom

Teri yaad nahin aati aisa kabhi na sochna , tere bin mann mera bhi nahi lagta
Bas Zindagi me mukaam haasil karne ki jaddo-jehat mein humko samay nahin milta
Ye Zindagi teri amaanat hai , mujhe ehsaas hai iss baat ka
Yahi sochta rehta hun ki kab mai tujhe thoda bhi lauta paaunga
Chalta raha hu abhi tak bina rukey , chahe kitna bhi dard hua hoga
Yahi prarthna hai mere maalik se 
Tera saath bana rahe humesha , aur pyar tera beshumaar
Tab mere zindagi mein manzil paane ka maza kuch aur hoga

Tera shukriya ae mere maula tu jahan bhi hai
Aisi maa paa kar maine paayi teri anmol zhalak.

Marna pade toh marr jaunga
Par jaane se pehle tera naam karna chahunga

What shall i say ?

What to say ?
when you have too much to say or too little to say but you can't comprehend

What to say ?
when you are terrified or maybe sometimes too excited
and you fail to utter even a word

What to say ?
when you are questioned inspite of your full commitment and perseverance

What to say ?
when you are accused of things you never did

What to say ?
when your credibility is at stake just for some petty , irrelevant and unimportant things

What to say ?
when someone asks you what have achieved till now in life
and you have none to state that this world recognises as achievement but its only you know their value

What to say ?
when someone or you yourself ask what do you want from life and you have least wondered about it until then

What to say ?
when barren scepticism starts creeping into your mind

What to say ?
when your parents look towards you with too much optimism (gives fear of failure)
and you know deep inside that you know u've been trying hard but sadly with less of observable output.

What to say ?
when people tell to you that you are such a romantic person..so pure at heart
still you don't have a girlfriend cum love of life.

What to say ?
when someone or the other say you are too talented and too good  a person
but i doubt these can fetch my family a good living (i desire nothing but happiness)

What to say ?
when you know that you deserve better but why have you not got it if it is so

What to say and do ?
when you have so much to say yet no one to hear you but i think now i don't care