Lost .. and back again

Every now and then
I am left bewildered
Driven by circumstances
That once gave me reason
for my life

I was never weak
But now
To everyone's amazement
I am a freak

It is love this time
That hurts
The feeling of not having you by my side
lurks

I had never complained
But this time things need to be explained
I had loved you like none
then..Why was i not the one ?

Deep melancholy has settled in my life
Days are sad and night brings nightmares
I have seen lots of highs and lows
None could break me apart
It was you who did the art
How insane of me , How daft
I couldn't understand the craft

You found someone more fit for you i guess
But you left my life in a complete mess

Sometimes it lasts in love
Sometimes it hurts instead

I am no quitter
But neither a sitter
Not that i won't miss you
Just that i figured out it was not you