A Mess- but not so much.

Am i walking?
Or am i still ?
Am i sober ?
Or am i high ?
Am i dead ?
Or am i alive ?

I've been weak lately like never before.

Confused.
Frustrated.
Unable to focus on things.
Worried too much.
Lots of issues to take care of.
Haven't written anything.
Not even read any of my favourite authors.
Learning music seems distant.

Search for peace,
And it becomes even boring

Moving on an unknown quest.

Restlessness has gotten into me.

I suddenly feel really excited by something.
Then in another moment feel an absolute disconnect to it

I go to unusual places to talk to myself,
to figure out things
Not knowing an answer to anything,
return feeling even more baffled

I am over-thinking things
Some have told me
I guess. It is so.
I need to: Stop. Look. And then Go.